Have Your Cake and Eat it Too
Give this a listen while you're here: Sam Smith - Stay With Me (Rainer + Grimm Remix)
Someone told me that today after I was talking about how I sometimes feel guilty about being here. I tend to have a lot of guilt, like why do I deserve what I'm doing and where I am. I can't think of any other answer than.. doesn't everyone deserve to be happy? Absolutely. This also gave me a new perspective on the quote after only ever thinking of Holiday in the Sun (too many Mary Kate and Ashley references in my life).
I was drove on the autobahn for the first time to Prague almost two weeks ago. It definitely took a new-found amount of focus to drive on the autobahn, #1 because it's entirely different than anything I've ever driven on before, and #2 I was driving at a steady 150 km/hour for the most part. I had some pretty great passengers and we drove to the most beautiful city I've seen so far in my life. I think I can say that now, although might be changed after this weekend in Paris. Twelve of us took on Prague and saw a majority of the city in 2.5 hours on a bike tour, ate some Czech food, turned our hostel into a club (or so we thought), climbed a hill (felt like a mountain) in our weakest state, climbed a mini Eiffel tower, crossed a lot of bridges, ate some Boom! gelato, didn't have any absinthe (un)fortunately, which all summed up to be an incredible weekend.
This past weekend I went to Tübingen, a town about an hour south of here. It's so gorgeous and feels a lot different than Stuttgart but made me realize how modern and big city-like Stuttgart is compared to Tübingen, which has a river...who doesn't want a river? I miss water a lot. I've never been landlocked before and just as the old saying goes, you don't know what you got til it's gone. The Long Island Sound and Lake Ontario will still be there when I get back, just as dirty I'm sure, but they're still a good escape and look really pretty (when the sun hits them the right way).
I really enjoy my classes at HdM, which is such a different atmosphere than Ryerson and I don't mind that at all. It feels weird not having 7 projects to be worrying about all the time, or 25 emails coming in my inbox everyday reminding me of all that I should be stressed about. It's crazy to think that Ryerson is already in exams right now when I could probably count the number of classes I've been to on my hand (excluding German). Back home, I like to be busy 24/7 and usually feel anxious when I don't have something to do. I don't feel that way here and it's been amazing to let that go.
Et puis, je vais aller au Paris ce week-end et je suis très excitée! Vive la France! Not sure if that's all grammatically correct, even after taking French for 10 years, but hopefully I'll muster up the confidence to actually speak it there.